2002-02-14 - 2:45 p.m.

I shouldn't have said anything. I was going crazy. This new psychiatrist is switching me to new meds at the same time as reducing one of my others. I get a burst of unfocused energy, then I'll crash and sometimes fall asleep. Other times I want to climb out of my skin. Life is unbearable. I put a call into the doctor to see if this is normal. I am waiting. A little self-medicating has calmed me and focused me for the time being. Now, it's all going to be focused on that. Fuck them. They don't know what it is like. I should have kept quiet. I will in the future.