I have never seen John so depressed and for so long. I know he deals with his depression differently than I do. He wants to hole up in his apartment and hide under the covers. I want him and David to be close to me so I can cry and hug them. I know John loves me. But, how can you not take it personally when someone is repulsed by your touch? This has got to end soon. It's
spiraling me back into my own depths of sadness. Update:
I wasn't accurate
when I wrote
repulsed. He just
doesn't feel
sexual. Neither do
I on these meds.
But, I had to let
him know that I
thought that we
could still be
intimate and not
be sexual. It's
something that we
both have to work
on. Changing meds
will most likely
help.
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